Hello and Welcome
I used to go by Alex until I started the Journey of Acceptance. I started with accepting the small stuff like accepting my full name (Alexandra), my wild and curly hair, my introvertedness (I thought I had to be an extrovert to be cool), and then into the bigger stuff like…fibromyalgia.
I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia in 2019, but my health started to down spiral when my right foot was swollen in 2010. I don’t recall how or why it was swollen and my foot doctor couldn’t find the reason, but it was swollen for around 4 or 5 months.
In 2012, the same thing happened but in my left foot and it’s never gotten back to normal. Which makes shoe shopping a frustrating experience…Bye bye heels…
I thought that was going to be the only thing that was “wrong” with my body, but anxiety made things worse. Neck and shoulder pain, and temporomandibular joint disorder (TMJ disorder)…Each year, one more body part (and/or bodily system) was being punctured by pain. And guess what…? This pain cycle was getting me more anxious and depressed.
As a practicing Catholic, my internal response was that well…this is the way God is asking me to love Him and to offer it up for souls. But my response to my pain and suffering lacked a sense of joy and freedom. Instead, it was coming from a victim mentality.
The thing is, the way I viewed myself impacted the way I perceived God. And so the way I perceived God (as controlling and authoritative) impacted the way I saw myself. Which influenced the way I perceived AND experienced fibromyalgia in my life.
This is where The Acceptance Journey comes into play.
The Acceptance Journey is an invitation to accept your body, mind, and soul right where you are because God meets you where you are.
To be 100% free of chronic illness, emotional and spiritual wounds is a good, beautiful, and holy desire. But acceptance is part of the healing process.
Acceptance helps you to observe with clarity what is “broken” and what is not “broken.” And it helps you to ask yourself, “Yeah, I have fibromyalgia (or insert your health issue), so what can I do about it?”
Instead of being absorbed in frustration, anxiety, guilt, or anger, you are accepting reality and doing something about it.
Because let me tell you, God desires you to have a good and wholesome life. He wants you to live abundantly. Yes, even with fibromyalgia.
He wants to cooperate with every single, tiny, dotted detail of your body, mind, and soul.
Because He made you as body, mind, and soul. And well, also for the obvious reason: He loves you.
- I am a Millenial, born and raised in the Bronx, NY…No, I’m not a Yankees fan. And not a sports fan, but hey, I don’t mind watching sports as long as you don’t ask me what’s going on…!
- Dominican blood in me 🙂
- Myers-Briggs: INFJ (But man, sometimes I feel like fibromyalgia is making me a P rather than a J…Anyone relate ?)
- I’m bilingual, but I gotta keep practicing my Spanish. I’d love to give a talk or “charla” in Spanish if and only when I master public speaking in English! Haha
- Got my Masters in Social Work specializing in aging and the homeless population.
- I’m a “quiet” snob about healthy and natural foods (I don’t talk about it, but will do soon haha).
- My confirmation saint is St. Rose of Lima 🙂
- I published a book of poems called Songs of Freedom which outlines my spiritual and emotional struggles in my life (mostly due to fibromyalgia and insecurity/codependency issues). You can find it on Amazon here.
What else you’d like to know? E-mail me (firstname.lastname@example.org) or find me on Instagram @theacceptancejourney 🙂